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Chapter 9
He said that and picked her up to go to their room.. Fortunately to his luck, no one was in the drawing room and she sighed as no one saw him picking her up and moving in.. well actually she felt relieved that he picked her up, she was seriously in no state to walk further.. she kept looking at him as he again wore a fake ASR mask behind his concern and they entered inside THEIR room, he placed her on the bed and moved to the washroom to get fresh without talking much to her..
He came out of the washroom to see his wife who was struggling to get up and move to the closet to probably change he thought.. he threw the towel he had from his hands and moved to her in two steps and supported her to get up.. she pushed his hands away and this made him angry once again..
Arnav- what was that khushi? Why are you not letting me help you dammit?
Khushi saw him in the eye and hurt was visible in her eyes.. her body held straight against his as he had again pulled her to him from her waist and only barrier between them were her hands which were pushing his chest to get free from the lion's clutches..
Arnav-stop struggling and answer me.. why have you changed so much?!i know that you lov- - -
Khushi-NO.. this is not right..
Arnav-what is not right khushi.. wait.. let us discuss that later.. first you sit down.. come.. you need rest..
She jerked his hands off her and turned the other way facing her back to him just to hide tears held in her eyes, and with a stone on her heart she said it..
Khushi-Arnavji, hamei aapki koi madad ki zarurath nahi hai.. hum apna khayal acche se rakh sakte hai.. aur waise bhi, ab hame akele sab sambhalne ki aadat daalni hogi.. (I don't need your help in anyway..i can take care of myself..and from now,I have to start taking care of myself..)
She turned around to face him with teary eyes and all he could do was stare her face without any expression on his face.. his heart was asking him not to listen to her next sentence but his legs were not moving to go from here.. seeing tears in her eyes ripped his heart each moment..
Khushi-waise bhi, kuch hei din bache hai, uske baad toh hame alag hona hei hai na..(its just a matter of some days till we are togehter..)
Arnav-why are you saying that khushi?where are you going?
She wiped her tears realizing that she was crying in front of him and looked the other way still not moving from the place..she took a deep breath.
Khushi-its just a matter of some days, the contract is ending this month..
Arnav-what are you talking about?what contract khushi?
Khushi-our contract..our marriage contract..
Her words made him numb.. his heart beats went slow and the world around him started to disappear. He could hardly feel any movement around him and the air around him was suffocated him.. he had lost his senses even to breathe.. his heart was not able to approve what his ears listened from her.. voice was not able to come out of his throat, but he had to speak something.. he took in oxygen and shivering,he went near her taking small steps.. her eyes closed and some tears still overflowing from her sad and desperate face..
His voice shaked when he made her look at him cupping her face.. her soft cheeks felt the heat in his hands..
Arnav-what?what did- -what did- - you say?
His desperate voice and his restlessness audible from his words,were touching her heart causing waves of emotions in her to hug him then and there..
Arnav-do you still believe in that contract khushi?and that too after we- -after you confessed your love for me and after we- - why khushi?why are you doing this?
Khushi-it was always a contract marriage Arnavji..always.. and also,(she gulped closing her eyes) whatever happened that night was just- -just- -well,it should not have happened..
Arnav-khushi, look and me and tell me, do you really regret what happened that night? because I don't.. do you? Tell me.. khushi, look at me, tell me..
Khushi removed his hands from her face and moved sideways carring herself on her weak knees.. tears were not stopping and her pain in her heart was increasing by his torturing questions which she din't want to answer .. she din't want to say any lie to him, but how can she say the truth..
***
(trivedishraddha-abbe bol de na.. 
kyu khapa rahi hai' bol aur khatam kar..
kyu khapa rahi hai' bol aur khatam kar..
Shraddha-nahi yar.. I have planned much.. wait na, chahe bhi toh wo kaise kahe? Saari jo baatei uska dil kehta hai?... well, think from her point of view..
Trivedishraddha- argh..waiting dammit.... better don't drag it..or I won't post from now..
.. better don't drag it..or I won't post from now..
Shraddha-ok..no dragging..
.. but I will make u post coz we both are same persons..
.. but I will make u post coz we both are same persons..
ZIP IT)
***
Khushi (seeing the other way turning her back at him..)-Arnavji, jo hona tha, so hogaya.. ab yeh sab sochne se jo ho gaya hai, wo badal nahi sakta.. hamara kal ab hamare aaj se jud chukka hai.. aura b yeh badal nahi sakta.. issi liye behtar yahi hoga, ke aap hame hamare haal par chod de.. hum apna khayal rakh sakte hai.. hamara aur aapka koi mail nahi hai.. aur is contract ke khatam hote hei, hamare beech sab kuch khatam hojayega.(nothing can be changed now.. my present is now linked with our yesterday, and it be changed now.. never.. so its better we stop the discussion here.. I can take care of myself.. and with this contract, there will be no strings attached between us.. )
He held her by her shoulders and pulled her to fall on him under his firm grip.. anger and hurt clearly visible in his eyes and his gestures too..
Arnav-sab khatam hogaya?itna aasan hai yeh sab tumhare liye?(NO STRINGS ATTACHED?really?is it so easy for you?)
Khushi-(firmly)contract aapne banaya tha.. humne nahi.. hum bas aapki baat maan rahe hai..(I din't make any contracts.. u did.. I am just following it.)
He left her shoulders and moved to steps behind and folded his hands on his chest looking at her who was staring the ground under her feet.. he made himself firm and gritted his teeth on his next sentence..
Arnav-oh,ok..so everything is on me right?all is my fault! Toh wo kya tha khushi, uss raat,jo hamare beech mei hua tha, do you regret that? Or wait..kya wo bhi contract ka hei ek hissa tha? Wo sab tumne CONTRACT ki wajah se kiya tha? Kya wo sab tumhare liye koi mayine nahi rakhte?kya hamare beech mei uss raat job hi hua tha, use tumhe koi fark nahi padta?tell me khushi..TELL ME.. (oh!okay.. so all is my fault,then tell me, what happened that night between us, that was also due to contract?does that all mean nothing to u? it does'nt make a difference to u what all happened that night?Tell me khushi..)
he screamed at the tiny figure standing aimless at the moment before him.. blood rising in his nerves and his eyes going red..
His each word was playing the role of salt on her bleeding heart..her eyes closed and her mouth waiting to deny the facts he mentioned.. no,she did not regret any single moment she spent with him that night.. it was infact the best night of her life.. a night which each woman waits to cherish her whole life was with her in her mind,as a beautiful memory..
She fisted her fingers trying to suppress her feelings.. her hidden truth of their love making was now growing day by day inside her.. evidence of the most beautiful feeling she shared with him.. with her husband.. she did not ever think to speak what she actually spoke next before taking a deep breath..
Khushi- Arnavji, aapko kya lagta hai? Hame koi farak nahi padta? You have no idea ke hamara wo kal hamare saamne roz aake khada hojata hai.. hum wo pal kabhi nahi bhul sakte.. chahke bhi nahi.. aur wo raat hamare liye kya maayne rakhti hai, yeh aap shayad kabhi bi samaj nahi payenge, after all, aapko apne alawa aaj tak sirf anjali ji ki khushi dikhay di hai, phir chahe hamare saath job hi ho raha ho.. AAPKO ISSE KOI FARK NAHI PADTA.. ITNA SA BHI NAHI.. par yeh hum samajte hai, aur isse hame koi shikayat bhi nahi hai..par kya aapko pata bhi hai hum kiss daur se guzar rahe hai? Nahi.. aap andaza bhi nahi laga sakte ke hum abbhi kitne akele hai.. sab aap ki wajah se.. SAB AAPKI WAJAH SE ARNAVJI.. sab- -sab- -(u think it does not matter to me? U have no idea what impact what meaning that night had on me.u have no idea how that night comes alive before me, every second of my existence... I can never forget that night even if I want to.. and u would never understand what importance that night has in my life.. after all, u never cared for me, but only urself and ur anjali Di.. I don't mind that, I understand that.. but do u even know what I am going through?all because of u that I am alone today..)
That's it.. he was standing dumb-folded like a dummy and his lips sealed trying to digest her voice which carried a pain,and some hidden hint, which his mind was still working on to abstract the meaning..
Her strain was out of her capacity due to the feelings which her husband provoked in her.. she fainted leaving her SO MUCH MEANINGFULL sentence incomplete and fortunately fell on the bed.. he rushed to her but she was already semi-conscious and she gestured him to stop.. he saw her pulling the quilt over her and turning the other side not to face him and get some sleep..
He wanted to bang his fist but he left the room in anger and got down and went to his white SUV and started his car to drive to a silent place..
**
It was late night now, almost 10pm..
He knew now what made her behave such from last few months..(he thought he did..)
The day his Di tried to abort her baby, he yelled at khushi and showed her how important his di was for her..in frustration he had said all that happened to his di was because of her..he din't mean it though..still those sentences and flashes of that night were playing like a series of memories of that awful night in front of his eyes.. his pressure on the accelerated increasing with the movements of his changing the gear..
"ha, YEH SAB TUMHARI WAJAB SE HUA HAI.."(all this has happened because of u..)
"agar tum nahi hoti,toh aaj di khush hoti.. aur shyaam bhi di ke saath hota.."(if u had not been there, di would have still been happy with shyam..)
"you are the biggest mistake of my life Khushi Kumari Gupta,kash mai tumse kabhi mila hei nahi hota.."
His own words haunting him made him pull the brakes hard creating a big screech sound making the silent atmosphere around him alive again..he banged his fist on the steering wheel..
Arnav-dammit.. just because of that one night she is behaving me me like this?
He moved out of the car and moved his fingers in his rough hair and paced fast from here to there..
Arnav-(self talk)no..that can't be.. I apologized to her.. she knows I was tensed that day,and there has to be something more to it.. what am I missing? Did that night effect her? Dammit.. its not possible.. she confessed she loved me and then only we- - no.. what is it?dammit.. what is it that she was trying to reveal today?
He moved around the car and these thoughts kept on running in his mind when his eyes fell on her purse inside the car which he threw today .. there he saw some sort of file lying half out of that purse.. he opened the back door of the car and lifted that file.. he flipped it just to read on it which made his legs shake and breathe go on a long hold ..
He read the name written on the file -
Name - Mrs.Khushi Arnav Raizada
Subject of file -' Pregnency reports
His hands shivered and his heart beat went slow.. he was going to be a dad?
Arnav-(self talk)Khu ' khu- khushi is preg- pregnant?! Khushi is pregnent? Ho- how?wh- when?since when?
His legs lost strength in them and he closed his eyes as the file fell down from his hand.. his breathing fastened and slowed as his excitement and anxiety took him over by confusing him more and more..
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