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Chapter 30
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Khushi was dropped unconscious on the floor and that too from God knows when.. Arnav rushed towards her and his face went pale as he picked her up from the ground and put her on that Bed.. Tapping her face, he tried to wake her up..
Arnav-Khushi.. Khushi.. Khushi wake up..
She dint reply and he was getting hyper.. His mind stopped working and he jerked her shoulders..
Arnav-Khushi! KHUSHI.. This is NOT FUNNY.. Khushi open ur eyes.. Talk to me..
He looked at the side table and saw a glass of water filled half.. He removed the coaster from above it and sprinkled some water on her face which forced her to react..
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Hospital..
Nani and Mami wore some green gowns and went to see Anjali.. They were told Anjali had gained conscious.. But here, she was still seemed to be sleeping.. Mami and Nani were standing behind a glass (one way mirror) , from where they can they can peep in, but the one who is inside cant see out (through that glass)..
They both saw Anjali turning her back and sleeping again.. She looked tired and sleepy.. Mami and Nani were feeling desperate to go and meet her, but then, they were supposed to be patient.. They remained there for a while and left..
*
Anjali dint know if anyone was looking at her or not.. She was just trying to hide her tears from herself.. She was informed about her loss and gains.. She was happy to be blessed with a boy.. But being a mother, she was equally in pain to loose her first child..
She wanted a daughter.. She and her husband together did.. Her husband was no more with her, but the talks she heard from him about raising their Choti Rajkumari Saheba haunted her somewhere today when she came to know her baby girl could not make it..
Maybe it was her husband's fake love that killed her baby girl.. She would never forgive her Ex-Husband Shyam Manohar Jha, who meant nothing for her today.. She decided not to cry over her loss and thanked God for what she was blessed with..
Anjali was not informed that her baby boy was still not a perfect piece, and it would take nearly two months for the doctors to say if he would survive.. Anjali, not knowing this, thanks God for keeping her and her baby's health safe.. May be this was the return which God gave for her whole hearted prayers and so many fasts she did..
God was there with her, he was not so cruel!
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RM.. ArShi Room
Khushi opened her eyes to see Arnav in front of her eyes.. His face was showing he had been worrying about something.. She looked at him and the first thing she could do was get up and hug him tight to let go of her stress, and she did..
Khushi-Arnavji!
She threw her hands around his nape and started to cry.. She dint knew what was next from his side, but she dint want to listen to his cruel words if there were any.. He pampered her head and made her calm.. He was relieved to see her fine, but still could not understand why she was crying so badly.. What happened to her? Was she not okay? Or did she come to know about Anjali Di bye any chance?
Least he could imagine that what was going inside her head.. He had no idea that his wife still made a home for the harsh words he had once said.. It was beyond his capacity to think about this at present.. He wanted to part the hug and ask her if she was okay, but she dint let him move..
Khushi-Plz stay with me Arnavji, for tonight.. I am scared..
He dint speak a word then, and she slept in his arms with tension still in her unconscious mind, and the night passed..
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Next Morning..
ArShi Room..
It was hardly sunrise, when Khushi moved on the Bed and found the other half of the bed empty.. She opened her eyes and saw she was alone..
Khushi-Arnavji?
She whispered and her eyes again filled up like yesterday.. She remembered how she hugged him when he came back and dint let him speak anything thinking he will again accuse her for the present happenings..
But then, she should not have hugged him, she should have suppressed her feelings.. No, she needed that warmth that time, and he gave her.. He dint raise his voice at her.. He dint.. But then now, where was he?
Before she could think anything wrong, her palms were placed over her mouth and she ran to the bathroom making a puking sound..
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Pool Side..
Arnav thought that he heard his name.. Was Khushi awake? She dint sleep properly yesterday night either.. Proper sleep for her was a must, and least he knew she was stressed to take rest in the day time too..
He remembered Khushi kept mumbling something he could not understand.. He had been awake for a while now, or say dint sleep only, same difference.. Yesterday was a big day for him.. So much happened in a day!
But life seemed to be steady now, not fully maybe.. He knew things shall be better now.. It was time to forget all bad things and live from the start, planning happiness.. But least he could understand, that happiness can never be planned..
He was looking at the dawn lost somewhere, with his hands in his track pants, when he heard some puking noise and he was sure it was Khushi.. He turned his head and rushed inside to see the Bed empty and the bathroom door open.. He got the thing..
She was not well yesterday night too, and now that she had been throwing up, he already thought what needs to be done next..
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Khushi came out in a while and saw her Arnavji pacing outside the bathroom door.. Arnav looked above to see Khushi coming out with a napkin, wiping her hands, and rushed to help her.. He would have gone in as the door was open, but he remembered that last time he went inside when she was puking, she dint like it and he dint want to make her feel uncomfortable..
Khushi felt Arnav holding her arms and leading her to the bed.. She dint know what to speak.. She was still unaware of Anjali's second baby's condition..
Arnav helped her to sit and sat besides her when she got up and Arnav looked at her confused.. Before he could speak anything he heard..
Khushi-I - - I need to eat something, I was feeling acidic so, I just threw up..
She threw the napkin from her hand on the bed and made way to their cupboard.. Opening the same, she took out a packet of toast and eat two or three at a go and felt better.. Arnav just realized something and spoke with a firm voice throwing daggers at her..
Arnav-Khushi..
There, she found his voice rough and made up that he will start his blames.. But she dint want that.. She closed her eyes and started to count seconds for him to blast..
Arnav-Khushi? COME HERE I said..
He just made out why she threw up and got angry.. She was feeling acidic as she skipped her dinner last night.. When he returned yesterday, he thought she would have eaten, but she dint! He was angry over her irresponsibility of avoiding meals specially in such a critical condition..
Khushi-I - - I am sleepy Arnavji..
She made an excuse and opened her eyes asking him to stand up from her side of the bed and waited.. He got up flaring his nose and went straight towards her, but before he could reach her, she moved sideways looking down like a scared puppy and went on the bed and lay down and covered herself with the comforter.. He was going to yell on her, she read his eyes well, and closed her own tight and slept..
Arnav kept standing in a corner with a 'What the-' expression.. Ya, he was going to yell on her, but he dint know what she had been thinking.. She slept and he walked out to make a call..
He came back in a while and saw Khushi had really slept again.. He sighed.. She really needed some rest.. He thought to talk to her about Anjali once she is awake.. Till then, he had some small works to wind up..
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2 Hours Later..
Khushi woke up feeling someone putting something on her chest and opened her eyes wide to see her Doctor (gynecologist), Dr. Kalpana, sitting besides her and checking her out.. She immediately got up and pushed herself back and closed her eyes and thinned her lips putting her hand on her back.. The sudden jerk of getting up made her back pain..
Dr. Kalpana-Its okay Khushi, aaram se.. (go slow..)
Khushi opened her eyes feeling a warm touch and saw Arnav holding her shoulders.. She got it, only he could be who could call the doctor.. He helped her sit and stood besides her.. Dr Kalpana checked her and Arnav spoke..
Arnav-She also threw up today morning.. Check her for that too..
Dr. Kalpana smiled still checking Khushi's wrist..
Dr. Kalpana-Its okay Mr. Raizada.. She is just fine.. Khushi, are u taking any kind of tension? Then plz don't take.. Stress wont make u feel any good.. PAUSE.. U are fine, and ur baby is okay too.. Eat properly, eat healthy.. U have two lives to support..
Khushi's eyes popped out.. She asked feeling uneasiness..
Khushi-Ha? Am I carrying twins?
Arnav's ears also alarmed and he turned to hear the Doctor's reply anxiously..
Dr. Kalpana-Ha? How would I know that? I dint do any ultra sound on u yet..
Khushi-No, u just said k I have two lives to support??
Khushi gulped..
Dr. Kalpana-No no.. I meant, ur's and the baby's life..
Dr. Kalpana got up smiling and took her Doctor's bag in her hand.. Khushi sighed placing her hand on her heart.. And Arnav looked at Khushi knowing exactly what she would react..
Khushi-Thanks God!
Arnav knew it! He chucked a bit in his heart and left to leave the doctor till the exit.. Khushi saw them leave and got up to go and get fresh..
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Arnav was biding a bye to the doctor, when he asked..
Arnav-All is fine with my wife, right?
Dr. Kalpana-Ya.. The baby's growth and her health, both are fine.. Just don't let her stress out.. Tell her to rest a bit more and eat healthy, mind it, Healthy foods, not Fatty Foods.. Nothing serious.. All fine.. And ya, I guess ur diabetic, right? Don't let - -
Arnav-I know all that, she is not taking much sugar.. She knows that well too.. And I also know that she should not stress and eat healthy and all that.. But I meant any special precaution?
Dr. Kalpana-Besides that? Erm.. Don't let her carry heavy things..
Arnav smiled remembering something and nodded..
Arnav-I know! Anything else?
Dr. Kalpana-Ya, see to it that she sleeps well.. Minimum 8 hours sleep at night, and 2 hours rest in day are a must.. Ask her take a walk and do some Yoga, I did suggest the latter last time, haina?
Dr. Kalpana doubted and spoke..
Dr. Kaplana-Erm.. And one last thing Mr. Raizada, it would be better if u let her rest..
Arnav-Ya! I know, u already told.. Anything else?
Dr. Kalpana-No! I mean, YOU should let her rest.. She needs it.. Are u getting me? Mrs. Raizada should rest in everyway, u know? It is her 4th month right, she may get attracted to her husband that is u, which is quite natural, but let her rest for a few days.. I hope u got me..
Arnav GOT IT and nodded.. Kalpana left.. He closed the door behind taking Vitamin tablets prescription in his hands and moved up.. He saw Khushi near the pool side, she was ready having had her bath, and was now watering his plants using the water pipe, it was a light work.. Arnav let her do whatever she liked, he dint mind her touching his any thing..
He thought of speaking about Anjali delivering a baby boy, and was about to go to her, but he got a phone call and went in the corridor to attend it..
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Afternoon..
RM.. Drawing Room..
It was afternoon and Nani and Mami were sitting in the drawing room when they saw Khushi come down.. Khushi saw them and was unable to face them thinking they wont talk to her properly after yesterday, but to her surprise, they called her to sit besides them and she sighed to go and join them down..
Nani-Khushi bitiya, u dint get down from morning! Are u okay?
Mami-Yes Yes.. Come on tells us.. Are u sad that NK left without meeting u?
Khushi was surprised.. Her eyes narrowed..
Khushi-What? Nanheji left already?
Mami-Ya! Ur husband only went to drop him.. But how would u know? U were busy resting in ur room..
Nani-Manorama!
Nani glared at Mami.. Khushi looked down embarrassed.. Mami laughed..
Mami-Arrey! I was just joking Sasuma.. Phati Saari, erm.. I mean Khushi, u dint ask about Anjali?
Just then ASR came out of no where and looked at Khushi..
Arnav-Khushi? U better now?
Nani (confused)-Khushi bitiya? Were u not well? What happened? Why is chote asking u that? Are u okay?
Khushi-Nothing Nani, its just that today morning I threw up na, so.. Erm.. ya..
Nani-Oh! Okay.. Are u better now?
Mami-Khushi bitiya, all okay na?
Mami looked at Arnav and Khushi with a small smirk on her face and Khushi immediately replied..
Khushi-YA YA.. I am fine.. I - - I want to drink water..
Khushi craned her neck and left for the kitchen.. Nani and Mami dived their faces in the newspapers.. Arnav followed Khushi to the kitchen..
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Kitchen..
Khushi was drinking water and saw someone's shadow.. She next felt someone standing behind her very close, and turned to see Arnav.. She held the half filled water glass in her hands and looked away..
Khushi-U want anything?
Arnav-Khushi, I need to talk something..
Khushi's heart started to beat fast and Khushi took two steps away from him.. Arnav found her uncomfortable and saw her feet trembling and went to hold her upper arms thinking she might fall.. By default his grip on her had always been tight, and right now too, he held her tight.. The glass from her hand fell down making a noise, and she started to breathe heavily thinking he is angry on her and so he is holding her so tightly.. Till when would she have avoided his words anyway.. He would get angry on her now.. She was preparing herself to ready to take it all from him for once and all, but they both heard..
Nani-Arnav.. Khushi.. Any one there?
Khushi looked down with wet eyes and pushed Arnav's hands holding her..
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RM.. Drawing Room..
Khushi came out wiping her tears and saw a wooden cradle in the drawing room and was surprised.. Nani went towards Khushi and Khushi looked at Nani..
Nani-Accha hua tum aa gayi.. (Good u came..) Manorama just left for the Hospital to see Anjali.. PAUSE.. You see this cradle? It was ur Sasuma's cradle when she was small.. I got it dusted and cleaned by HP.. HP, come here..
Nani called HP who was standing on a corner doing something..
HP-Ji Naniji?
Nani turned to Khushi..
Nani-Khushi, I cant carry this, and nor can HP alone.. Can u plz help him with this? It needs to be shifted to Anjali's room..
Khushi was confused..
Khushi-But Nani, Di's baby - -
Nani-I know, and Anjali will also not come before one week or two, but can u plz help HP to carry this up?
Khushi could not deny Nani, and nodded in a Yes..
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Kitchen..
Arnav was confused why Khushi was behaving so different towards him since yesterday? Was she not okay? And what was that he just saw just now? Had she been crying? Why?
Damm his grip, always so harsh on her.. He has to be calm, at least with her now..
He marched out..
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Khushi and HP carried the wooden cradle from either sides.. It was a bit heavy indeed, and Khushi closed her eyes tight tring to carry it.. She was able to pull it.. Khushi and HP started to climb the stairs with it, and were reached half way UP when Khushi flinched to hear a roar from ASR..
ASR-STOP!
Arnav saw Khushi carrying that wooden cradle and he knew she was not supposed to carry that.. It was heavy, and not advisible for her.. Why could not she understand that? Was she trying to test Arnav's patience? Then ya, he had lost it now..
ASR rushed halfway on the Hall Wall Stairs and pulled Khushi back to hold the Cradle from her hands.. He flared his nose throwing daggers at her..
ASR-Go Up, NOW.. U are not supposed to touch this.. (turning to Nani..) Nani, were there no other servants that Khushi is doing this? (turning to Khushi..) I am here to handle all this.. GO I said..
He yelled at her for not taking care for self, not having any idea that it could be taken in any other way.. She had tears in her eyes when she turned her back at him and ran up to their room.. ASR helped HP to carry the cradle UP, when Nani scolded..
Nani-Chote! The other servant are not available and so I asked Khushi bitiya to help, and she did.. What is wrong if she helped HP? Why cant she?
ASR yelled..
ASR-Coz my Wife is Pregnant Dammit! She should not lift this heavy thing..
Nani was shocked at first, and happy the very next moment.. She smiled wide and so did HP..
Nani-Sach? (Really?)
Arnav looked down and asked HP to move up to shift the cradle.. Nani had happy tears in her eyes and wanted to tell this good news to everyone.. She left for her room, and ASR and HP managed to push the cradle in Anjali's Room and Arnav went in his room to deal with Khushi and explain her that it was enough of her jumping around and she better rest..
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ArShi Room..
ASR came inside his room in full anger and locked the same behind him.. He roamed his eyes everywhere to find Khushi no where and went to see her missing near the pool side too.. He came back in the room and went to the bathroom.. He knocked it twice..
Arnav-Khushi.. Khushi.. Open the door Dammit.. Khushi! I know ur inside, come out right now or else - -
He stopped speaking as he saw Khushi opened the door and coming out with Red eyes.. Her cheeks were so wet and he made out she had been crying.. But why? ASR melted to Arnav that very second and he took a soft step towards Khushi who backed off raising her hand at him..
Khushi-Bas kijiye Arnavji! Humse aur sehen nahi hoga.. (Stop it now Arnavji.. I wont be able to take more..)
Arnav-What??
He had no intuition of what was going to happen in the next 10 minutes of his life.. He took a step close to her to hold her but she moved back again..
Arnav-Khushi calm down.. Plz sit..
Khushi-Nahi Arnavji.. Bas ho gaya na.. I know u think that I am the biggest mistake of ur life and u regret having met me, haina?
Her tears started to pour making a lump in His throat and the land below his feet shifted..! He could not believe what he just heard.. Did she really say that? No, cant be.. But yes, she did.. His heart was ripped off.. Why Dammit? What made her speak that?
He wanted to speak something to stop her from speaking anything this moment, but it was too late for his slow response that she continued to speak what he dint even think for her..
Khushi-I know u blame me for ur Di's situation.. U have done that before too, remember?? I know what place I have in ur life.. I know Arnavji.. It was a mistake for u to make me urs that Night which made ur heart repent later, and u compelled urself to accept me and this baby, and I know why..
Arnav was growing more speechless by each moment.. He was so much in a shock to absorb the meaning of Khushi's words.. He never blamed his Khushi for anything.. Was she really thinking such about him? Why? From where did this come from?
Arnav-Khushi listen - -
His voice hardly came out and she looked in his eye and to cut The ASR and throw out her hidden doubts proving them to be right in her way..
Khushi-I know u wanted to yell on me this morning also, and in the kitchen again today..
She was not ready to think from his point of view.. The truth was, that in morning, Arnav was going to yell on her for her improper food habits, and in Kitchen he followed her to pass her Vitamin tablets, when he ended up gripping her tight.. He got it, k she was angry on him for that and tried to explain her but..
Arnav-STOP Khushi.. Ur taking this the wrong way..
Khushi-Nahi Mr. Arnav Singh Raizada! I have got it all right.. Just now too.. U stopped me for doing what? I can't even touch the cradle?
Her tears dint stop all the way..
He actually dint want her to life the same as it was too heavy, and he yelled on her for her own good.. Why? What had she been thinking?
Khushi-Ya, UR Di, Her baby, Her loss, all is important to u.. I know, it should be.. But then.. PAUSE.. I know u think I am the main cause of her illness.. If I was not there, Anjali Di would still have been happy, right?
His heartbeat was loosing, and so was he.. His breathe hitched and he chocked almost.. Shivering, he tried to maintain some energy and attempted to defend his heart..
ASR-NO.. Khushi.. Plz..
He looked down feeling restless and was growing weak, trying not to raise his voice and be calm to explain her doubts to be useless..
Khushi-U urself told me those words that day, that I am the Biggest Mistake of ur life, that means u thought that.. If u never thought that about me, u would never have spoke such in anger too.. And today also.. *looks down and sobs*..
ASR-Today WHAT Khushi?
He gritted his teeth in irritation.. He was so unsure what's going to happen now.. Khushi wiped her tears and looked away..
Khushi-U tried to get angry on me and I ran away, I may be unlucky for u but plz stop this.. *sobs harder*.. I am the biggest of ur life right? (She looked in his eyes and broke down to fall on her kness..) No, even big than that, k u fell for my feelings (confession) that night and pitied u to make me mark as urs and then, *sigh* I conceived..! Thank God u dint doubt this baby to be anyone else's or I would have died then and there.. And - -
She chocked not able to speak anything more when a sudden ASR appeared in front of her, and went near her and grabbed her to pull her up and..
Arnav-Enough already Khushi.. Not a word more.. Stop repeating all that again and again.. I told that in anger and u know - -
He was angry on his limits now.. She looked in his eye and tried to speak still struggling..
Khushi-I know what u think about me.. U never wished me to be in ur life, I remember ur words Arnavji, I would have left long back, but just coz of the Contract, am here.. I know.. Then after that, u will leave me.. U are forced to bare me because of out Contract Marriage, haina?
He joined the dots and got it now from when and where she started to think all this.. This was the same insecurity which held her back of giving him the news of Their Pregnancy.. He thought he had rubbed this thing Off her mind, when she herself gave him the good news of herself becoming a mother, and him becoming a papa..
But he was shocked beyond words to describe how much apart his world fell knowing his wife still doubts his love for her.. She still needs to be told that he loves her, he really does!
He already settled his Ego and confessed that he loves her truly, and he knew she loved him more.. Then why she could even think this? From where did this thing come from? Why was she thinking on that side now? He never blamed her for anything this time, not even in his heart, then why she herself was doing that? WHY?
He was suffocated..
He already repented lots due to his two words of anger for which he thought he had made up, but NO! Khushi was taking him Wrong! She judged him Wrong.. She doubted his love for her.. She dint Trust him just coz an ASR still lived somewhere inside him..
But that ASR never woke against her since the Day he realized her Value in his life, till today.. He truly loved her.. But did she care to ponder on that and understand him?
He left her arms loose and stared at the ground.. His head going dizzy..
He knew she was childish and very bubbly, but she was mature too to understand the difference between Love and Compromise! Then how can she?
Khushi does not understand him.. She does NOT trust him, neither his love.. He had an idea that she fears his ASR side, but how can that allow her to think that he would blame Anjali's Destiny's Play on his Khushi? He cant be that pathetic..
Her words had crossed every limit today.. This surely cant be a mood swing now.. Just because she was pregnant, that does give her hormones the freedom to question his love for her!
Least anyone ever knew, that Arnav loved his Di, BUT ASR loved his wife more than anything, and he could do anything to hold her with him forever..
Arnav's love for his Family was equal, But Not ASR's.. And Khushi did a mistake by questioning ASR's Love.. He wont prove his Love to her, he does not need to, the proof is already living inside her as he says..
He would leave her, that was impossible to imagine, and she would think to leave him, he wont let that happen..
He knew she was stressing herself which was not good, but then all this what was in her heart had to come out someday, and today was the day.. She really dint choose to move on, did she? Now that she has decided to keep her mind tracked on that Dark Past on a Very Serious Note, he could not help but get back at ASR form just to control her in His way..
There was a long silence after which he heard from her..
Khushi-I want to go to Buaji's house for few days..
ASR-NO.. PAUSE.. U CANT..
Khushi-I am not asking u.. Am telling u.. And anyway, its just a question of a few days now..
She said looking down, not able to look at him directly.. He could not believe such a day came in his life that his pregnant wife was reminding him of their Contract Marriage.. God, why did he even do that? He turned his back on her and spoke..
ASR-What ever happens after a few days shall be seen later, but for now, u cant go anywhere, not out of this room even..
He faced her and held her arms, and pushed her on the bed and ordered her not to move..
ASR-Now if ur done with all this, then Better rest for a while.. U cant take stress and I wont let u.. U have to stay here and u will.. SLEEP now..
He forced her to lie down and kept a pillow below her waist which she threw away in frustration.. He wanted her to sleep maybe after which she would calm down and think on what so ever happened and behave wisely, but.. She got up just to raise his temper more..
Khushi-Why should I? U won't like me around u, and everyone too would blame me for Di's loss and - -..
ASR who was fisting his palms, suddenly caught her words and turned with an unsure face..
ASR-WAIT.. How do u know about her Loss? I dint tell u, neither did I allow anyone to tell u, then?
*Knock Knock*
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khushi's plight is understandable as arnav has been ASR on her for too long now
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